Brief history of my spiritual journey:
Inspiring stories and the spiritual realm beckoned me for as long as I can remember. So, to say the metaphysical, spiritual, and formless dimension has been a great interest all my life is an understatement. I’ve pondered and explored life’s bigger questions the better part of my life.
I started reading near death experience books in fifth grade, and had a few experiences made sense only by spiritual explanation. Now, I’ve always got at least one personal growth/spiritual book going. Soaking in the deeper teachings of life is what’s gotten me through (particularly life with a brain tumor, the constant pain, and the many losses it created) with unbreakable faith and a pretty solid inner and outer world.
It’s amazing that our Divine calls in life evolve and change. I was called to nursing, and then called to write and create art. Some calls are large, and others are tiny. Throughout my journey devoted to serving the greater good, I have deepened my relationship with the Divine. I have found more purpose, meaning, and depth in life, as well as opportunity and drive to impact the world on a greater scale. Hence, the book I’m writing, the mission of this website, and The Light Society Blog. I pray this is an inspiring story for all to dis-cover their greatness so their true essence can shine upon the world.
The future is a mystery. But I’m still here. And as long as I am, my intention is to be the best me I can be so I can do the greatest good for the greatest number of people. I’m gonna do all I can to make this world a better place than it was when I got here. After all, that’s the point of this life isn’t it?
I was born in 1983, lived a happy, normal Texas life with three siblings and two great parents. I swear we were happier than this picture shows! Hahaha!
As adults, and through life’s trials, the relationships in my family have deepened. I am truly blessed with a loving, supportive family. It’s beautiful how life’s difficulties bring people together.
We grew up going to Methodist church so God was always a part of my life. At five, my friend and I tried digging to Hell so we could slay the devil as warriors of God. Hahahaha! The hole was a good eight inches deep! I have several memories as a young girl pondering God and the spiritual realm. As I got older my focus shifted from religious to spiritual.
My adult life:
My incredible husband entered my life when I was eleven. We dated other people as we got older, but were always good friends, and always came back together.
We married in 2003. This man has the kindest, most loving heart. He’s one of my greatest blessings in my life. His love and support is…there isn’t a word for it. He’s incredible.
Our amazing son entered our lives in 2004. He has been such a light and great joy. (I put only younger pictures to protect his privacy.) My other great blessing in life!!
Having a lifelong interest in the medical field, and a doctor for an uncle, I felt the call to be a nurse after my son’s birth. I earned my bachelors in nursing from the University of Texas at Austin (HOOK ‘EM HORNS!), and began my nursing career in 2008 in the antepartum, newborn nursery, and mother baby unit. (Love my Mommas and babies) Nursing was fulfilling in many ways (Yes, that baby’s first pee and poop gave me joy! What? It tells me a lot of info about their organs!) and stressful in others.
As I continued my spiritual exploration, and my spirituality deepened, I felt something more calling me. I didn’t know what it was, nor exactly what it was about. I felt it in that deep place of my being that I couldn’t ignore, but at the same time couldn’t put my finger on. As time went on, an inner restlessness grew, and although I felt fulfilled any many ways, a mission of an unknown identity brewed inside of me.
My restlessness grew to a frustration, and then eventually a surrendering. In the hope of finding clarity, I hit my knees in a sob and prayed.
That moment is seared into my memory. It was one of the most intense moments with the Divine I’ve ever had. I prayed for clear guidance. I said, “I know you’ve put something in my heart, but I don’t know what it is. I give myself fully to you. Please let my will be yours. I give my life to you. I want to serve the greatest good for the greatest number of people…no matter what.”
Shortly thereafter, the symptoms began.
The headaches began, along with a list of other symptoms. One night the pain was so bad I swore to God I’d go to the doctor if I could just live through the night. I told my doctor the symptoms. He ordered a brain MRI.
The MRI tech told me they’d only call soon if it was bad news. Less than an hour after I left the office, my phone rang. It was my doctor asking me to come in immediately. Even though his office was closed, he wanted to see me. That’s when I found out I had a brainstem tumor.
As a nurse, I knew how serious this was. Not only was it a brain tumor, but it was basically the worst place to have brain tumor.
I saw and spoke with many world renowned neurosurgeons from MD Anderson to Duke to Cedar Sinai and more. Every one of them gave me the same answer. It’s inoperable.
The brainstem is responsible for controlling vital functions such as breathing, heart rate, and blood pressure. As time went on, I became unable to maintain an upright position for extended periods of time.
Luckily, the tumor is very slow growing, and I finally found the most amazing doctor on the planet. We found that botox injections in my neck and face decrease some of the pain. This treatment has saved my life by decreasing the pain enough so that I can continue to socialize with my family and do other activities that caused too much pain before.
So, I now spend all but 2-3 hours a day in a horizontal position. After much inner debate on whether to share this aspect of my life, I finally decided (against my very private tendencies about this topic) that I had to. While this experience is extremely personal, and my least favorite thing to talk about, it’s my leg to stand on when I say you can face some really hard shit and still create a full life with a peaceful and joyful inner world. I pray The Pinnacle Beacon and this blog will show how I do it.
The Pinnacle Beacon & The Light Society Blog:
The Light Society Blog is the product of a book I’ve been working on since 2013. It’s called The Pinnacle Beacon, and I fully believe it’s what was calling to me years ago that I couldn’t identify. This tumor has allowed me to write this book and blog that I may have never written otherwise. I fully believe it, and now this blog, is my Divine assignment. Click here to go to The Pinnacle Beacon page.
Reid Tracy, CEO at Hay House publishing, suggested that I build a platform for my book. Hence the blog. However, as I’ve gotten deeper into the blogging process, I’m super pumped to continue to share this spiritual journey with the rest of the world. I realize this blog is an extension of the answer to my prayer. This blog is another calling, not instead of my book, but in addition to it.
I never really considered myself a writer. In fact, I remember several papers or stories I wrote growing up that got B’s that led to the true or not belief that I couldn’t write well. That being said, I felt a book inside of me since my young twenties. I even started it over the years as a nonfiction, but it never felt right even though I had ideas inside of me that I felt compelled to share.
It wasn’t until I was thirty that the book I felt seeded inside cracked open and revealed what it wanted to be. Five years later, I finished the first draft of The Pinnacle Beacon. I am currently in the editing phase and plan to self publish to start. Stay tuned for updates on its progress!
The intention of the Light Society Blog is to share my insights and experiences in the hopes that my readers will find guidance, hope, humor, a bit of wisdom, and even a friend. This blog covers items and actions that enhance my life that I feel may benefit others. It is everything from a consumer report to spiritual guidance. Blog topics will span from which dish brush works best to my favorite spiritual practices and wisdom. I hope you’ll join us for the ride!
In Light & Love,